Things have seriously brought me to thinking. Things which I feel that you're really selfish and bias over. Put yourself in my shoes and see the picture. Perhaps you may not even notice it at all since its all been like this for so long.

After that particular day you changed and I feel that there isn't any need to do any changes already. Like I've referred to the cup thing its pretty true. I don't come from a very good background neither am I very rich to spend as much money as you guys do. But at least I know when a friend is in need of help, I go all the way.

It even brought me to suspect that you actually took me for granted. I remember all the late nights I helped you so much and in the end, seriously speaking, I got nothing much of a return.( I didn't even expect any by the way.) You even asked me to lie in the face of your loved ones about you two going else where.( Is there even a need for me to do all these since I'm not even involved?) Best of all, you didn't even bother to invite me to something grand.

Even since that day after her birthday, I even told myself that that's gonna be the end. You couldn't even bother to look at me in the eye when you talk when I met you guys at night to return your stuffs. What a way to treat a friend.

Is there any disappointment? Sadly yes but not too much. I've actually came to realize or even cannot be bothered about it anymore. Definately I don't feel happy about it when I'm typing all these shitass thing. At least, I can vent my anger here instead of someone else.

What's the point of putting up a fake front when the real one inside you is trying its best to surface? I cannot be bothered at whatever friends you mix with, party at which clubs or pubs or anything else. I'm simply washing my hands out of these crap. No point wasting my time hoping that a FRIEND would invite you like they always do.

Its never a good day thinking about all these crap.
Goodnights fuckheads.!
Have a hell of a nightmare.


P.S Since I'm not in a good mood I don't care whatever words I use. Offended? Get the hell outta here then.

xoxo,
you know you love me